Yes, I am in a ranting mood, so sit your friggin' ass down and listen to me.
The world is a fucked up place, and it ruins people. Good people with good purposes get worn down and after a while they sink down into the mud and disappear. Some even kill themselves. Why? Because the world creates ideals that are impossible to reach, making people feel bad about themselves. There's nothing wrong with YOU! It's the world you live in that's the problem.
Places like Facebook makes me so god damned depressed and angry. It's like the place has been designed only to throw it in your face how much better everyone else around you is and how much of a failure you are. It just helps the general world in wearing down the good people.
I know some beautiful people. And I mean really beautiful. My best friend is the most gorgeous woman alive, in every possible way, and she's got a beautiful body and a lovely face. And despite this she has issues with her own weight and appearance, simply because there are idiots out there that lives by the ideals the world sets and tells her she doesn't meet those ideals. It's just a bunch of crap, if you ask me. She's beautiful, and if they can't see it then they're the ones there's something wrong with. My mother has the same issue, feeling like she's overweight and not pretty enough, even though she's such a gorgeous woman that so many look up to. I've always bragged about having the most beautiful mum, and it's not just pretend. She is beautiful. But the world makes her believe otherwise. Idiot world. And my sisters, my gorgeous sisters, are so pretty in every possible way, and I admire them so much. But I know they have their issues. One of them is constantly trying to loose weight, thinking herself to be overweight despite the fact that she's thin as a nail! She is so perfect just the way she is, both of them are, but again the world is a fucked up place and won't let them see that.
I know a lot of beautiful and good people, and yet they see themselves as less than crap because the world gets to them. It gets to me too, making me feel like a worthless shit because I'm sick and don't have a proper job or friends or whatever else the world obviously think is important that you have. I am so sick and tired of it, and I'm so damned sick of feeling like I'm nothing but toxic waste just because I'm not 'perfect' like the world wants me to be.
I know I've got faults and issues - damn it, I live with them every day so of course I know! - and I have my bad days. I get depressed easily, I've got self-esteem problems, and I always believe that I am worthless in the eyes of others so I stay away from people thinking they're better off without me as lump in their lives. Facebook pisses me off cause in there I see daily how much better other people's lives are, them having jobs or going to school, having homes they love, having a bunch of friends they hang out with, and just generally are so much more accomplished in life than I am. It's a constant reminder thrown in my face every time I log in to that site.
Why does it have to be that way? For years I've always had the idea that there was something wrong with me, cause I can't seem to fit into the world in a perfect way. But in the end, there's not me there's something wrong with. It's the world. It's those idiotic ideals the world creates, then throws into people's faces and have them long for them, making them feel bad about themselves for not reaching those ideals.
Why do you have to be less perfect just because you don't have this or that thing, or look exactly like that, or have that specific weight, or know those specific things? The world is a fucked up place, out to ruin every good soul out there that deserves so much more.
Ignore the world. Ignore it's ideals. Be YOU! Feel good about being YOU! And be effin' proud of who YOU are! Don't listen to the idiotic world and what it tells you. Just tell the world to go to hell, cause you certainly don't need it! You're so much better than it. Because YOU, you're absolutely perfect, with all your flaws and ticks and god knows what. It's what makes you who you are, and you're gorgeous! And never forget; there's always someone out there who loves YOU for who YOU are, no matter who you are or what you're like.
If we all just learned to love ourselves a little more, then maybe in the end the world would become a better place. Cause right now, the world is shit, and it makes us all feel like shit.
I know I, for one, is tired of feeling like shit.
Thanks gorgeous =)
SvarSlettFuck the 'beauty standard', fuck the 'measure of success'. Fuck them right up the ass, sans lube. It's bullshit, and nothing about us is 'standard', or can be 'measured' against anyone else's ideas of perfection. Nothing about you, or your sisters, or your mother, or your best friend, needs to conform to any asshole's idea of success.
SvarSlettEveryone on Facebook is putting up their best pictures, their best anecdotes, striving for the appearance of success in others' eyes. They could just chill the fuck out if they realised that the only measure of success that should count is your own, and your own measure of success can be ANYTHING YOU WANT.
I do what I like and I cuss out things I don't like and I try my best at what I do even if my best is a pretty shit effort, and THAT is my measure of success for myself and no motherfucker can tell me otherwise.
Anywaaaay... I hope something nice happens to you today. =) Anything that does, I totally take credit for it, 'cause of my good wishes and everything.
- Sophie
you know, after I signed into uni, I lost contact with most of my old friends since I was drowning in work and trying to find my place in the new fish tank I attend to.
SvarSlettanyway, It made me quite sad to see my old friends [ who entered army a year after me, so when I was at uni they all started their after-army vacation together ] posting on each others walls, talking about how great was last night, and lets do it again and so on.
made me feel like an outcast, or less loved since I didn't have these text leftovers on my wall as well.
thing is, once we had a meet up, and I told them how I envy them for having time and doing all sorts of fun things together. and they admitted that actually, these meetings, actually was a meeting, in singular. and oll the other stuff? they just puff it up to make it seem bigger and reacher from what it really is, to feel less lonely themselves.
so it might look all so shiny, but it's not. some of the most lively people I know, that are happy doing what they like to do and nothing else, don't even have FB, or use it for other reasons than share their work and talk TO friends - not talk ABOUT HAVING friends.
and you DO have friends. never forget it.
... and in about 5 months, if you won't get it soaked in, one very pissed friend will physically come over to pillow fight it in your face. well, she'll come anyway, but a pillow fight is nice regardless =)
-Tammy